Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Continuation

aug 9

WE ALL MUST LIE TO OURSELVES IN ORDER TO CONVINCE OUR ONLY MIND OF WHAT WE WANT IT TO BELIEVE.
INSTINCTS, INDUCTIVE REASONING, AND EVERYTHING YOU FEEL IS NOT REAL.
YOU MUST BE MORE SUCCESSFUL. THIS IS NOT COMFORTABLE. THIS IS A TEMPORARY RELIEF.
NOONE SHALL EVER SEE THOSE THOUGHTS. SCRIBBLE THEM DOWN AND BURN THEM. BURN THEM ALL!!
THE DARKER SIDE CAN BE STOWED. DEEP, DEEP INSIDE. THERE THEY WILL STAY. BECAUSE I'M TOO AFRAID
TO EXPLAIN THEM. WHERE COULD THEY HAVE COME FROM? UNLESS.....

I'M HAPPY NOW!! I TOLD MYSELF TO PRETEND WHAT I FEEL ISN'T WHAT I FEEL. I FOUND THE ANSWER!!
REALITY IS BLINDING AWAY THE REALNESS. SURE IS HOT OUT THERE. I WANT TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH EVERYONE.
HEY EVERYONE, IT SURE IS HOT OUTSIDE. WHERE DO YOU WORK? IS THAT FUN? WHY DON'T WE HAVE SEX.
DIRTY, FILTHY, HORRIBLE SEX. WE'LL TURN OFF THE LIGHTS, BE QUICK. BE SILENT. THAT WILL CAUSE HAPPINESS?

WE CANNOT BE FRIENDS AFTERWARDS. I NEVER WANT TO FUCKING SEE YOU AGAIN. FILTHY DIRTY HORRIBLE TRASH.
WAIT. THAT WAS LOVE. OK, WAIT, I LOVE YOU, LET'S GET MARRIED. HOORAY!! PRETEND THAT LOVE IS REAL.
I DIDN'T BELIEVE IT. BUT THEN I DECIDED ONE DAY IT WAS FUN. NOW IT'S REAL!! PAIN, SADNESS, DARK,
BLACK,MEAK,COLD NEVER REALLY EXISTS. ONLY IS CRAZIES. CRAZIES THAT NEED TO BE LOCKED UP. SO LET'S
LOCK 'EM ALL UP AND WE'LL ALL BE HAPPY!! YAY!!




~Your inept to care. You'll fail. You will never have the courage to love a woman. You will never
have the courage to love children. You will only ever have the selfish ability to exist. Comfortably.

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